Depression: there's more to it
My last post was a year ago. I cant believe how much I have struggled this last year. It was the worst I have ever gotten with depression and anxiety. I fell down a deep, deep whole. I had Zero desire to continue living. Tried several medications with much trial and error. With all my struggling, I even started to resent the only constant that I have had in my life, God. why would he do this to me? my whole life i wanted to me a mom and as soon as I got a chance, I've hated it every step of the way. Or so it seems. I felt that when I truly begged for help, I received the very thing I didn't want. I didn't want to resent Him but I wasn't seeing that He was even around. After a hospital visit, did you even know that you could talk with a psychiatrist that dedicates their life focusing on mental issues and meds to help? It might have been that I was in the whole so deep i just couldn't remember they existed but what made me ...